Sem break 2

This was the longest sem breaks i ever have since i started my degree.
although it is just one month plus.
i am thankful for it!

In fact, i feel busy even during sem break =_=
keep going out with cousin, uncle and aunt.
keep going out with family.
Christmas party.
Steamboat.
One-day trip. #throwback
Kuala Kangsar trip.
*really thanks dai gu and gu jiong for the nice food and warm welcome!*
Bake Cny cookies.
and banyak banyak lagi!
As usual, pokkai liao.

And today,31/12/2013 marks the end of 2013.
2013, thanks for everything, for the good and bad =)
It has been really tough.
But,
thanks for giving me a chance to grow.
thanks for letting me know that there are many people willing to stay by my side.
i would like to say thank you to everyone beside me =)

*awesome day spending with them ♥ we dont need to keep in touch frequently, we dont need to talk or message each other frequently, we dont have to remember each other birthday, we dont need to explain our problem in detail, we dont meet frequently, but we know that this will never affect our friendship. 我们不了解彼此，但我们有默契!-quote of the day xD The most awesome things is, we always pokkai together and save money together =P once we talk about the real 'forever' friendship? remember? i am positive about that  ♥ ♥ ♥

** 其实幸福很简单，静静的坐在家里看戏其实也很幸福 =)

*** Dear 2014, please be good to me =) 

Sem break

Finally watched 'the hunger games 2' and 'thor 2'...

hahahaha! i know i am a bit outdated xD

i was busy with finals and assignment for the past few weeks~

Both are awesomeeeee!

except that i dont really understand some part of the hunger game..

muahaha. aki almost punch me for keep asking why ady xD

i guess it is because i didnt watch the hunger games 1 before...

ohyea! we have korean food as our lunch! it cost us less than RM13 per set!

Glad to have 'outdated' friend to accompany me to watch 'oudated' movie xP
And glad to have someone who are willing to listen to me =)

How i wish peki is here with us ='(

if i am not mistaken, we only able to meet up once in year 2013 >.<

And! dai gu come KL again~~~

with yao yao..

she never fail to bring us laughter!

Dinner with the big Lew's family was awesome =)

Am really glad that i can be that close with my uncle and aunties..

and yea. my cousins too.

we went Giant after the dinner..

our main purpose were not to buy things..

but to find a place to 'play' and joke around xD

laugh till my face cramp! 

* my roomie tells me 'you clearly understand the fact, just that you choose not to believe it.' yea. i agree. i live in my own life SOMETIMES
** Attended an AGM tis morning. it is quite boring but at least i get to know how it goes and learn something. and i was surprise by their passion!

*** PMR result is coming out sooooon! real soooon! Qing, all the best! 

**** It is your fate. You have nobody to rely on. The only thing you can do is to make yourself stronger!

~zhikuan~

Come Back.

It has been 2 years since i last updated my blog..

hahaha.. sorry for abandoned u for so long..

Was stalking some friends and celebrities' blog just now..

And i get to recall that me myself actually have a blog too!!

hahaha.. am really completely forgot about this..

yea. I am toooooo freeee and i have no money to spend >_<

awwww.. all memories flashed through my mind while reading my own post..

2013 gonna end soon...

yea. i am grateful that it finally come to an end!

too many bad things happened on 2013..

i mean for me!

Family, friends, studies, financial, health.......

everything mess up =(

This is what my friends told me last week..

'i am going through something you will never expected..

i am very stressed out recently...

but i cant tell you what is going on'

lol. it sound so familiar. 

hmmm. i guess the only thing i can do is to stay beside her.

god bless you =)

and yea. i have something that i cant tell too =)

everyone has!

* i hate growing up. 

** Aunty is here again! and my little cousin yao yao is here tooo! i love hugging her ♥

*** there is no point to look backward! stop looking back, move forward. and whatever people said, dont care!

~zhikuan~

For you.

一个人回去很不好受吧？

回到同样的地方，

吃着同样的食物，

上着同样的课，

可是，

身边的人却不同了。。

一定很难受。。

不过，

没关系 =）

一切都会变好的。。

相信我。

记得要常用心的笑

这样才会找到用心对待你的朋友

记得收起你那酷酷的样子

不要摆出一副生人勿近的脸

记得要学会放下

不要把所有事情都看得那么重

最重要的是

记得用功读书

不要一边看电脑一边读书了

该睡的时候睡

该读的时候读

不要熬夜了

加油吧♥

我相信

没事情是可以难倒你的

我都这么强了

你不会输给我吧 =）

*还有，不要因为这而流泪哦～

~zhikuan~

Be Happy =)

hmm.. didn't update my blog for some time..

haha xD due to my laziness..

FYI,

i juz entered a new uni.

moved to sungai long..

having a new life over thr..

met lots of new and friendly friends..

as i know, there will be a lot of assignment and presentation waiting for me =(

Trying to be strong and brave for being alone outside thr =)

luckily i met some new friends thr...

And

i juz got my result.. on 23rd of january.. the 1st day of cny..

didnt expect that i able to get into the website once i log in..

stunned for a few second.. checking whether is that really my name..

hmm.. disappointed. Tears falling down.

nothing much to say about it..

Told myself, not to expect too much and prepare for the worst..

but it doesn't help. My tears was uncontrolled.

Anyway,

yet, had a lots of fun with cousin n friends during cny

btw, HAPPY DRAGON YEAR to everyone =)

steamboat, barbecue, gambling, 孔明灯, red wine, carlsberg...

cant stop smiling while looking at the pictures..

not because of the pics are funny..

but the memories..

May all of our wishes come true. Look forward to gather together again soon.

Happy to have you all in my life.

Ended.

Bye cny holidays

Bye a level results

life still go on..

Gambateh ♥

Classes start on monday.. and i hav to go back tmr ='(

*I am worry bout you. Remember, i am always here for you. Stay strong for everything.. i know u can get through it..

**Really hate myself for caring things even those which is not important one so much. Care about every single thing is really tiring.

*** I always believe that a =) is able to change things. So, keep smiling.

~zhikuan~

经验

刚刚经历了人生一个新的尝试。。

promoter =)

faber castell 的promoter。。

对我来说。。

这真的是一个很好的经验。。

也是一个很开心的经历。。

有时候会在想，

上天其实也眷顾了我不少。。

身边总是会遇到一些很照顾我，很疼我，对我很好的人。。

所以，真的很感恩身边的每个人 =)))

哈哈。。

要开始做工的前一天。。

我竟然害怕到跑去问家人：‘为什么giant不倒闭啊？？’

哈哈。。他们差一点就喷血了 xD

第一天嘛～

什么都不知道而且又谁都不认识。。

这种什么都不会的感觉真的很恐怖。。

还好 =）

认识到一个lactogen aunty。。

她真的太好人了！

什么事都教我。。

隔天还介绍一大班好笑又热情的朋友给我认识。。

认识他们之后。。

嘻嘻。。我就开始长毛了 xD

偷偷跑来跑去找人聊天，偷吃东西。。

真的太好玩了xDDDD

没想到。。

才刚跟很多人熟了之后。。

却要结束了 =(

很不舍得啊～

#1 这件事情实在是太paiseh了xD 我竟然用马来话去问一个很像马来人的华人uncle要不要是用F/C。。 LOL! 这个还不算够力。。他用华语回答我还不用紧，还转头对他的小儿子说 ‘刚在那个姐姐跟我讲马来话 xD' LOLOLOLOL！我简直像撞墙去 @.@ 还好，他过后还一直跟我聊天。。

#2 认识了一位M先生。。 跟我一样是promoter。。竟然在认识三天后，很认真地问我对他有没有意思 @.@ 那还不用紧。。他过后竟然还讯息我，打电话给我。。我又想去撞墙了。。他可是一位老师叻。。我no eye see =.=

#3 最后一天工作，临走前，有位在Giant扫地的外劳竟然跑去买了一支orange juice 来送我。。LOL！谢谢啦 =) 还有还有。。还有一个很可爱的工人，跑来跟我要电话号码 @.@ 但我怎么可能会给啊？他样子真的很可爱一下xD 每天我放工前都会来找我。。最后一天要走时，他还用那sad到不得了的眼神看着我离开。。LOL!

#4 嘻嘻。。不知道是F/C 真的那么好用还是我的promote skill 好呢？*容许我自恋一下* 很多product都卖完了，没货了xDDDDD 说真的，我其实在冒着一个险。。到底会不会收到钱??因为要等一个月而且除了我联络的那个人，其他东西我都不了解。。 不过很多同事都说是那样的。。不过要去吹他。。

*星期六就要搬家了 *sob sob* 时间这么过得这么快啊？？？又要面对很多的未知数了。。加油吧！都已经活到快二十岁了。。没什么事情难得倒我的啦～

**实在是太想念她们了 ='( 想念那些一起上课，一起省钱的日子。。没有你们的学校，没有你们为我遮风挡雨的日子会是怎样的啊？

~zhikuan~

Just The Way You Are

Red FM :

I would like to dedicate Bruno Mars- Just The Way You Are to my best friend ever Miki. She is going to start her university life this weekend. I want to tell her that although we will be hard to meet each other after that but i do always love and support her no matter what, just stay the way she is. -aki-

*i will never forget this ♥ thanks for everything. Thanks for always by my side when i m lost and sad and alone and hurt. I wanna tell u that, u have ur magic too =) u always able to make me cry, laugh, and cry+laugh. Remember our promise ya! Please keep ur promise till the end of the world or till u old till no more teeth.. i will love and support u always too ♥

~zhikuan~

Tanjung Sepat =D

It was a sunny day.. xoxoxo

ba ba bring us to tanjung sepat & morib beach x )

i kinda not happy with this decision actually..

I GONNA HAVE MY A2 SOON at that time..

Anyway..

din regret to join them.

hav a really nice day with them =)

dont!!!! xP

qing & kang

my leng lui ma mi =)

qing & me

eat! eat! eat! =S

情人桥 ♥

muahaha xD my king size ba ba ~

hehe.. 'study' inside car xD

a nice place to play kite

ini orang act emo xDDD

*I LOVE MY FAMILY =)

** outing with family really makes people feel good ^_*

*** went broga with my big family today =D everyone sudah crazy ady xD love them lots ♥

**** 烦恼一箩箩的扑向我了=( jiayou ba!

~zhikuan~

miki's bake house ♥

Hohoho xD

promise to upload picta SOON in my previous post

HEHEhehehehe

my SOON here means after few months xP

Forgive me T___T

imma busy wif studying, shopping, outing, gathering, sleeping, eating and bla bla bla..

here it is =)

the ingredient needed.

*dang dang dang dang*

*with raisin and sugar*

*looks not nice rite? ='( but taste still ok lar..

~zhikuan~

Random =D

FRIDAY

outing with my two darlings ♥

the best outing with my lao poss ever~

had movie together *trespas-aduii.. wat movie is tis??? boring die =_=*

shop around and looking for mb's dream shoes xD

had our dinner at BBQ plaza and had a really nice chat with them..

AND i bough a pair of new shoes..

T.T no money lerrrr...

conclusion of the day : 'DRY' xDDDD

Feel really good after the outing wif them =)

remind me of our secondary life...

love them lots ♥

SATURDAY

duhhh... tot can really start study de...

end up bake bread with my sista =.=

gonna upload all those handmade, ugly bread picta soon

a brand new experience

SUNDAY

i already expected..

i sure not really got time 2 study de

due to my lovely family...

went pantai morib and tanjung sepat...

nice beach, nice seafood, nice weather~

gonna upload picta soon too~

had a nice day wif mua family ♥

*OMG.. I REALLY NEED TO STUDY LAR.. Why there is so many obstacles?

** It reminds me. The worst feeling i felt was.. the need to keep explaining to the world 'why'..

*** stop eating! FAT WOMEN!

~zhikuan~

outing ♥

went times square and sungai wang with my beloveds last wednesday..

after begging them for so long =.=

haha xD

and the reason they agree to accompany me is 'ZhiKuanLew cut her hair'..

hmm.. planned for so long.. and this need a lot of courage =.=

and i decide to do something on my fringes..

my two beloveds: peki and aki ♥

credited to aki summer~

*smile =)*

so, here is the 'before'

well... thanks to the stylist for making my hair look quite

good after cut..

BUT.. it is impossible for me to get the same result if i dry my hair by myself T__T

ARGHHHH!! it curl here and there!

FINE! I SUDAH BIASA!

and here come 'after'

have a happy day with my beloved last wednesday =)

love them lots ♥

*SO, this is ur attitude?! then i wish u good luck in ur spm..

** And my dad said... 'tmr lets wake up at 7am, v go klang eat bak kut teh' LOL.. make sure u can wake me up 1st =P

*** hmm.... think positively and be happy =) everything will be ok soon ^__* it is the time matter. Gambateh =)

~zhikuan~

“家人”

点点滴滴的回忆让我发自内心的笑 =)

一开始认识他们，就觉得他们都是很好很好的人。

是他们在我还没认识任何朋友时，让我觉得我不孤单。

在我以为没人知道我生日时，给我来个惊喜。

两年都为我生日费尽心思。

也是他们，带我做一些疯狂及在家一定不能做的是 =P

就好像，三更半夜12点才出发去云顶或海边。

他，吊儿郎当，但其实心地善良，是个大好人，而且是个愿意努力的人～

他，就像一个哥哥，贴心，长得还不错，我经常都会想‘要是他是我哥哥多好啊’～

她，漂亮，是一个傻大姐，但永远都会为别人着想，照顾别人的感受～

她，善良，很会打扮。我真的很喜欢与她聊天，问她的意见～

他，幽默得不得了。每次都可以让我笑个不停 xD 永远都忘不了他的‘招财猫’～

以后还会联络吗？

没想到，时间过得这么快，一转眼，快一年半了。

以后还能找到这么好的‘家人’ 吗？

希望，所有人都可以过得好好的。

*long time din update my blog ady xD Ps... addicted to twitter =P as i only need to post 1 or 2 sentences~

**next saturday!!! cant wait to you all ♥

***这不值得。你有没有想过，别人会怎样想我。

~zhikuan~

boooooommmm!!!!! xD

原来。。

当你不喜欢某人的时候。。

不管他/她所做的一切都会变得不顺眼。。

越来越多的不爽将会累积下来。。

好像在等待着爆发的一天。。

哈哈。。。

事情并没有这么严重啦～

而且。。

以我的性格，怎么可能会爆发呢？

前几天，

有个朋友说。。

当你用另一个角度，另一个观点来看待同一件事。。

一切都会变得很不一样。。

心里也会好过很多。。

但。。这又谈何容易呢？

是我太小心眼了吗？

*你看见我的改变了吗？我在努力当中～

**really looking forward next friday...haha xD

***人生无常，珍惜生命，珍惜眼前人。。。R.I.P

~zhikuan~

if i have a choice....

if i have a choice,

i will choose to stay at home...

even i will lost some freedom compare 2 stay outside....

like go genting during midnight...

dunno y...

i juz love to study with my sis beside me...

i juz love to sleep with my sis beside me especially when i m insomnia...

i juz love to eat de food tat my mum cook...

i juz love to help my mum when she is cooking...

i juz love having dinner with family every night...

i juz love when my bro talk to me bout wat had happened during his day...

if i have a choice,

i will not choose close or some1 that taking the same course n class as my roommate...

seriously....i m not mentioning anyone...

tis is how i feel and how many of them feel too...

hmm...... i dunno how 2 say....

if i have a choice,

i will choose form 6 instead of A level...

i noe tat form 6 is not easy 2 study...

but....

at least i don hav 2 worry about scholarship...

n may be i have a chance 2 study at local U....

i don have to worry about all my fees n finance problem...

if i have a choice,

i wanna go back to the past...

i will love my grandma more....

i juz so miss her...

everything is juz if and only if...

and the fact is...

i don have a choice now...

no matter what is going to happen in the future....

i have to face it....

n i will stay strong =)

* happy birthday to ba ba..

** happy birthday to ming hong...

*** happy bithday to shirley...

**** and finally this is my 100th post...haha...after almost 4 year.. lolx...

~zhikuan~

WHATEVER~

finally....

trial exam was over...

din really do well...=x

but....

I DON CARE!

I TRIED MY BEST ADY!

lalalalala~

the ONLY THING i care is......

my holidays~

MUAHAHAHA....

seriously found tat 4 days are not enough 4 me..haha

i wanna read novels~

i wanna watch vampire diaries~

i wanna play plants and zombie~

i wanna hang out wif lao poss~

i have 2 wash my shoes~

i have 2 wash my bag~

huuu........4days only...MANA CUKUP O??!!!

*i don wanna 2 disappoint u....i don wanna 2 add on ur burden too..but i tried my best ady...da only things i can do now is...pray for miracle... n thx for ur understanding... =)

** kena scold becoz of i look pale n too fair ady....she said wan bring me go for body checkup....=S nooooooo!

***the ward+vampire+zombie make me insomnia wei...lolx....luckily got qing sleep wif me....haha

****so lucky tat i m having holiday on april fool...hahahahaha

*****aku miss uuuuuuu~

~zhikuan~

压力

有时候。。

我会在想。。

是因为奖学金吗？

如果没有奖学金。。

我还会这么辛苦去读吗？

因该会吧

从小到大。。

我最不能忍受的就是成绩不好

每一次。。只要成绩不好

心里就会很难过。。

每每一到考试。。

心情就莫名的不好。。

看着书也会发脾气。。

只要有谁没顺到我。。。

我可能会火到乱丢东西，乱骂。。

所以。。

绝对不要小看我。。。

在考试期间

绝对不要惹我。。。

有时候。。

会很害怕别人说我厉害或成绩好之类的

很害怕别人对我期望太高

结果。。连我自己也对自己期望很高

看着别人的成绩好过我。。

说真的。。心里会难过。。

看着明明自己付出了很多的努力

却得不到想要的结果。。

心里会很受伤。。

*这应该算是我纾解压力的其中一个方法吧。。。

**“打起精神，加油=)”

***你昨天所说的话。。真的让我不爽了。。虽然过后你有试图安抚我。。但我知道，如果万一事情真的发生了。。你还是一样会这么说的。。。

****请你们不要拿我来跟别人做比较。。。

~zhikuan~

情人节

过了一个与以往截然不同的情人节

一大班同学一起去起火锅。。

说真的。。

真的过得很开心

很感谢所有送我情人节礼物的人。。

很感谢an11b。。

因为你们。。

我过了一个美好的情人节。。

thanks edison =)

da most surprise valentine's present

n i really really like it a lot

thanks yue ern

这是我活了19年以来第一次收真花。。哈哈

thanks aki

经常把我的话放在心上

然后一一为我实现

thanks tjun git

thanks 4 still remember me on valentine's day..haha

*是时候把心打开了吗？

** 有时候，善意的谎言只是为了不要别人为自己担心。。

*** 真的很感动你为了我而花尽心思。。

~zhikuan~

我

昨天

某个朋友突然问我这个问题。。

你会是一个好的女朋友吗？

hmmm..

我毫不犹豫的回答说：不是！

没错。。绝对不是

哈哈

我回答朋友说 '不是' 之后。。

朋友也很认同。。。

哈哈

我。。。

应该没多少个男生会受得了我吧。。

心情好时。。可以聊很多。。

心情不好时。。冷到不得了。。

经常来找我的。。我会嫌他烦。。

不来找我了。。我会觉得他不理我了。。

我爱你，我想你，

这些话。。我大都说不出口。。

而且。。也不大会表现出来。。

所以。。当有人做了让我很感动的事情。。

很大可能就只能看到我冷冷的脸。。

但其实。。只是我不懂要怎么表现。。

~zhikuan~

最强喜事 (premiere)

went pavilion yesterday

wif family n kang's fren, chun keat...

watch da latest movie~all's well end's well 2011~ premiere

which will only on on cinema from 3rd of february...

mum got ticket from her fren..haha

hav a wonderful nite!

meet lot of local celebrities..

took pics wif them...

n da most wonderful thing is..

qing won da lucky draw..muahahaha

the invitation card

foods and drinks are provided

kang, ngan mei yan and chun keat

local celebrities

qing won da luck draw

最强喜事

my new look...

with brown colour con and straight hair

*nice movie! damn funny..haha..like it~

**T.T seriously hope tat my hair will look better after i wash my hair

***i wan jian fei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

****gonna go mum's company annual dinner later.....

~zhikuan~